it’s been a long time since i last blogged ain’t it? haha… no particular mood to blog. what more could i ask for? found a job, happy. no negative feelings or anything…. just pure bliss and at peace.
what job have i found, u ask? hmmm a job that would make u wish i wasn’t your friend. think about it.
don’t worry. i won’t pressurize you.
seasoned people in the same profession would say i’m soft. but being the thick-necked person that i am.. i still believe one can win using soft approaches.
major problems with my faith. hhaa. i think i’m treating God as… a God of conveniences. Ah, how easy it is to throw God aside after He has blessed me. I remember for months, I have been praying for a job. I didn’t get the job that I want. And another opportunity came by – which was closer to what I want, and it was better. Better boss, better commission. And the day I found the job was the day I forsake God. I forgot about Him. I stopped praying, I stopped my relationship with Him. I’m still very childish as a Christian. Sometimes I wonder why must we have a relationship with God. I mean.. i know it’s important. and i would want to do it. but i don’t know the purpose behind. but anyways… i find great encouragement in the bible. we all know that.. if we believe in something, we will get it, right? it states the same in the bible: Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.Mark 11:24. I like it that it teaches us how to be positive. Hmm i think i still might be wrong… but i guess going for bible study more… and as time goes by, i would be able to understand more.
maybe i can pray for my exams. haha. failed 2 papers. registered for them again, to be taken in another 3 days. i hope i can pass. i really really hope i can pass. i wanna pass!!!! ganbatte-neh! really…. one never stops learning. we should never stop learning. i can’t imagine that perhaps a part of me wants to be stagnant all my life. but i can see life will really be meaningless if i haven’t grown any wiser or more intellectual. my life would be a total waste. should juz go and die. why bother living a fruitless life?! but really… to say that i am "over-and-done-with exams" after getting my degree………………. is juz an illusion. haha.
L.I.F.E. 