happy lunar new year!!

and just one more month before i kiss the office goodbye to concentrate on my exams.

 

ahh talking about office. everyone in the family starts work on thursday yet i start work tomorrow. what a bummer!!! oh well… that’s how it’s gotta be eh? i bet everyon’e kinda bummed about it. haha…. speaking of work. the excitement of going to work has started to wear off. i’ve slowly started to plan mY MCs and leaves though i’m on pro-rated. it sucks yeah i know… but sometimes i just dread going to the office. the work there is mindless and mechanic. it should be all automated. sometimes i wonder the importance of someone doing my job. seems like it’s not important yet sometimes it seems like it makes a world’s difference. ahha…

 

this lunar new year… i haven’t been spending time with the family. i don’t know why… i don’t really feel like being home on the second day of cny. it’s like i’m anti-social trying to hide from the rowdy relatives. but i guess i really do feel that way. i don’t feel comfortable. cny gathering seems an almost superficial affair. and i don’t like it very much.

 

okay i’m tired., that’s it for my first post after such a long time.

a brand new year!!!

a brand new year often means new year resolutions. but nah i’m not gonna do that – why should i? i never stick to my resolutions ANYWAY!!!! alright.. if there is one resolution i have to make, it’d be the same resolution i’ve had for the past 23 years minus 7 years = 16 years? stupid resolution!

 

anyways, life is good to me. and i can’t explain why i’m utterly happy today!!! i made some potato salad for dia and auntie. haa.. maybe it’s the thought of giving that gets me all hyped up.

 

you know, i always put high importance in maintaining friendships. i’d put in effort just to make sure we stay at best friends or good friends. but then recently… i stopped trying to act concerned altogether. i guess real friendships shouldn’t be of high maintenance. what good is a friendship when you always have to cajole and coax your friend to meet up with you when he/she doesn’t give a damn about you? i mean… this shouldn’t be the right thing to do, is it? since when has friendships became so difficult to maintain? it should be both ways. and you shouldn’t feel tired about maintaining a friendship. i’ve always felt tired trying to maintain friendships with some people. i feel that they aren’t responding as much as i would like them to. and hence i work even harder….. but still…. it doesn’t pay off. maybe ….. they are just not that into me. right mal, u are right 🙂 be it friendships or relationships…. it always takes two hands to clap. so be it, if u’re not as important to someone as her/his other friends. just stay cool… be just normal friends then. in life, you don’t need a lot of good friends – just one is enough. one who will be there for you, and one who doesn’t mind your presence.

 

(and one smelly little friend just walked into my room turning round and round, with her pink little tongue sticking out)

 

right now…. i’m trying to do the right thing. it’s difficult… to do the right thing in times like this. i have to give up something – but i’m not willing to give up that something, or someone. sigh… but trust me, i’m not overly concerned about it as yet. and i hope i’ll never be overly concerned about it anytime soon, or in the future. i hope it’ll just vanish. or fade away.

 

exam is in 4-5 months time. gotta buck up, or i’ll lose everything.