fulfilling life

though it would have been better if my cute little pet bird was still around in the house. i wonder how it is….. hope he’s doing well. i miss that cute little face of his!!! i miss having him leaning against the back of my hand when i’m trying to feed him. i miss him burying his face into my fingers when i’m rubbing his cheek. i miss him so much. but alas…. birds are suppose to be free, aren’t they? 🙂

 

today my head of department asked if i liked what i was doing. i said "okay lah".. then she repeated "haha.. okay lah" lol.. what did that mean??!!!

 

every weekday is a mad rush for me. from the moment i start work, 8.30am, sometimes 8am… my butt will be stuck to the chair all the way until about 7pm. lately, i haven’t been going out for lunch either. ha! who says the end of the year is the most relaxing?! apparently, not over here! though people are continuously taking their core leaves… which leaves me wondering if i ever will get a day off – which is highly unlikely!!! but the work never stops piling. though today it was better… i got to relax at about 5.30 onwards. haha… the people here are really nice! which is good – for a change. lol… they’re really young, and young at heart. and i think i can really click with them. gone are the days where i drag myself to work!!! now, even if i’m made to do OT… i don’t feel sad. hehehe… surprisingly, if i were to have little work to do.. i’d feel uneasy. it’s as if i’m missing out on something or it’s like i’m not working hard enough. lol… nuts. but my supervisor advised me to never ever skip lunch or have late lunches. which is true… for the past week i’ve been taking lunch after 2pm. once, even at 4pm. but… it’s some kinda experience. i like it. but probably not in the long run.

 

still thinking of how to proceed with my biz plan. ahh!! money money money.. is ur honey.. in a mad man’s world…. tra lalala

 

something weird happened just 2 days ago. i was suppose to go play badminton with him. and i waited for him for like 40 mins.. bombed his phone like nobody’s biz and finally……….. he turned off his bloody phone. i was so so so fuming mad. smsed him a shitload of vulgarities… but deleted them away. then.. on my way home, he smsed me to say his gf found out he was gonna meet me and started a big fight. wtf?! for wat sia? it’s not like i’m going to play his cock… we‘re just gonna play with a shuttle cock!!!!! with bats! crazy….. but i guess if i were her i’d probably get angry too. who knows rite?! haiz… relationships! i think i’m not gonna be commited to a relationship any time soon. i’m still enjoying the freedom as of now. it’s like… yes, at times i yearn to have a boyfriend.. who would stand by me.. who would take care of me… who…. would hug me to sleep. but… what’s the point? he can’t even come home with me, i won’t even stay with him… and maybe…… who needs boyfriends when u have good friends??? and i hate it when i have to report my activities to someone. yucks… i’m not having any of that any time soon!!!

 

and oh recently, i’ve been digging into th3 littl3 nony4 shown on channel 8. it’s really nice except for the overly chinese pronounciations and the way they pronounce the malay words. but still nice on the whole. while watching it… i was thinking "finally, people will stop calling me nonya kueh and baba black sheep!" yay~~ lol.. when i was young, pple asked me what dialect group am i. i always had 4 answers:

1. I am baba. "huh? baba black sheep have u any wool??"

2. I am nonya. "what? nonya kueh ah?"

4. I am Hokkien. "ORH…. I SEE"

 

anyway, after watching one of the episodes where ou xuan was taking so much care of her granny.. i suddenly thought of my grandma. after the show ended, i went back to my room to sleep. and……… i started sobbing -_-

 

oh well….. ha… xmas is coming. this xmas will be a good one. i have family. i have friends. i’m having a good life.

GONE

donut is gone, donut is gone!!!! my pet bird is gone. this morning, i found him very noisy. in fact he’s always noisy because he wants attention from us, any of us. he’s a playful boy and he never knew how to fly. yet todya, he FleW. and when he flew, he flew RIGHT OUT OF THE WINDOW – something he has never tried before. why did he do it sudddenly? he never knew how to. he never would. whenever we let him out of the cage, he’d just follow us around, picking up little things on the floor. he’s a curious little bird. but today, i don’t know what happened. why did he fly away??? all my animals are leaving me.

 

first… crystal. glad she’s still around though. i don’t wanna lose the last standing animal at home. then i found a cockatiel before donut came. i named it diamond. it died. that’s why i bought donut. donut is very cute. when you offer your hand to him, he will lean against your hand so that you can rub his tiny little face. and when u stop, he bites you because he hasn’t got enough of you yet. when you start rubbing him, he allows you to handle him. so i’d always put him in my palms and walk around the house – provided i never stop rubbing him.

then one day, i found a sparrow – it was a newborn. i fed it till it was able to fly. and it flew away. that, i didn’t blame it. i had donut… donut grew from being jealous of it till it started taking care of the baby bird. when the baby bird was hungry and we were too far to hear its twits, donut would let out its shrieking call and i’d go running to feed the baby bird.

and then just last week, i found a jack russell. i called it Happy. it scared the hell out of donut and crystal. had to send him away.

 

now my prince left the house. i dunno where has he gone to. but he’s been in a cage all his life. i hope he won’t die. he’s such a smart bird…. i finally saw his tailfeather grow long. 10cm long. in the past, whenever his tailfeathers grew long, he could only keep it for at most 2 days. he’d finally break it because he’s been running around in his cage, wanting to come out – that bad temper of his! so this time, his 10cm tailfeathers has been staying with him for more than a week. and i’m proud of it. but i never took a picture of it because…. i never expected him to fly. i guess i took his daily actions for granted. he never wanted to fly doesn’t mean that one day he will never fly. i hope he’ll come back one day though… i deeply miss him. i’ve been crying since 1.30 pm – the time we found him missing.

 

it’s raining now…. he hates water. will he get shelter? will he know where to get food? will he fly fast enough to avoid being eaten by an eagle or a crow? will he get stepped by humans because we don’t usually look at the floor when we walk and given that even though he’s a bird, he doesn’t use his wings much?

 

dear god, please bless my pet bird. do gods bless animals?