la mexicana!

i was just browsing through the pictures i took in california and i saw the pictures we took at Mariasol, Santa Monica Pier. MY GOD!!! i could taste the fajita in my mouth! YES, THE EXACT TASTE!!!! i really luv fajitas a lot. and Guacamoles, EVEN MORE!!!! i miss anything mexican…. that i went to carl’s junior and ordered the double guacamole burger. YUMMY!!!!! lol…. i should really drop by Margarita’s sometime… mexican here is so darn expensive!

 

god… i’m missing america already. first, i miss it for their cheap and good mexican food. secondly, i miss their beaches. ahh santa monica beach!!! venice beach!!!!! thirdly, i miss the shopping. hahhaa…

 

anyway, i think i’m a bit drunk. yesterday night i went clubbing! drank quite a bit, but not drunk. but… this morning i woke up with a watermelon over my head – felt DARN HEAVY. but i just came back from the sun festival. went to watch the UBS something Festival Orchestra. the music was really nice!!!! but alas…. z monster came and swept me off my feet. and off i went into dreamland. dreamt of funny things though…. not that i can recall any of it now!! so after that… was the highlight of the evening (or my whole day).. there was a REALLY NICE RECEPTION!!!!! there was a Sashimi counter, roaming waiters with glasses of wine, champagne, fruit juice on their trays, as well as finger food. it felt like some ATAS event!!! and you could just dance around the area picking up food and drinks from the trays of those waiters! i didn’t take a picture because it felt really suaku… lol… but i really felt suaku!!! and you feel like u’re rubbing shoulders with the rich!!! …. lol. i’m just contented with my free alcohol.

i’m glad

life for me is good now… so I haven’t found any need to blog, just that I have found 2 very nice friends who have made me think in a different light. and i’m glad. and finally, i saw chris sweetness online after such a long time!!! must be a year or so!! so i guess it’s a sign things are turning nothing but better!

 

One day, Elephant and Camel get talking. During the conversation, Elephant says "Camel, don’t mind me asking, how does it feel to spend your life walking around with a huge set of tits on your back?" Camel replies ," No, I don’t mind it at all. But it is a silly question coming from someone with a huge dick on his face!!!"

geek talk!

engineer: it’s a .do extension not .is
me: okay
me: but where is it that change it to a .do?
engineer: inside web.xml
engineer: there’s a section that looks like this :
engineer: <servlet-mapping>
  <servlet-name>action</servlet-name>
  < url-pattern>*.do</url-pattern>
</servlet-mapping>
engineer: u can change the .do to .is
engineer: but problem is if the .do url is referenced in the page files or code, then it’ll break
me: oh okay.. so with this code u typed above… it will change all pages within the directory to .do?
engineer: it will just get the web server to map .do or .is to the java code then to a jsp
engineer: but like i said if u hv some url with a .do that is used in the app, if u change it to .is, it will get a 404
me: oh okay
me: i get it
engineer: but u can add another <servlet-mapping> without removing the previous that processes .is, that’s possible so it doesn’t break things that use .do
me: uhm ok

me: btw what file is a .jar?
engineer: it is actally a zipped up file containing mostly the compiled java code, the .class files & maybe some config files like .properties and .xml
engineer: it is a library file containing code essentially
engineer: u can see its contents by using winzip or something
me: okay
engineer: mostly these .jars are external libs written by 3rd parties that the code uses
me: oh ok
me: i’ll try to absorb first…. all these wat.. lib, jars… all hese lingo is like not english to me
me: so let me go explore then i’ll grab you when i need help ya
me: thanks a lot

when will i get you out of my head?

i hate mamma mia!!! it keeps reminding me of you and i don’t know how to erase the lyrics off my head!!!!! but i luv the music too much!!! ahhhh!!!!

 

till this day, i still keep thinking of you. i think i still can’t accept the fact that even though i tried so hard, i still didn’t manage to maintain an integral part of your life – or that i haven’t even been considered as an important person before. is that my ego speaking? or what? soemtimes i don’t even know if it’s because i can’t let go or is it because i don’t wanna let you go. memories of you, are few but intense. i don’t have many memories of you that i can hold on to…. but the memories that i have of you, though little…. it still stays etched in my mind. can’t erase them. i’ve been resisting sms-ing you because… after all, you are someone’s already. i shouldn’t bother you. but i hope you won’t ignore me or forget me. and i can’t believe until now, i still cry everytime i think about you. SHIT!!!!! last time i would only cry for at most 2 weeks. now? i’ve been crying for months. FUCK!!! LAME SHIT!!!!! i love you as a friend k!!!

 

as you can see, i’m trying so hard to psycho myself.

 

where is the ZAI K3 Y1NG??!!!!! GONE. i must find myself back. the cheerful, happy go lucky self.

 

everyone seems to be trying to get over a heartache. is it that the earth is split into 4 categories : the married, the attached, the heartbroken and the singles.  i guess the singles won’t be able to find anyone because the other heartbroken are mourning over their ex-significant other who are now either married or attached.

 

 

Dear Management,

I, the penis, hereby request a raise in salary for the following reasons:

1. I do physical labour

2. I work at great depths

3. I plunge head first into everything i do

4. I do not get weekends off or public holidays

5. I work in a damp environment

6. I don’t get paid overtime

7. I work in a dark workplace that has poor ventilation

8. I work in high temperatures

9. My work exposes me to contagious diseases

 

Sincerely,

Penis

 

Dear Penis,

After assessing your request and considering the arguments you have raised, the administration rejects your request for the following reasons:

1. You do not work 8 hours straight

2. You fall asleep on the job after brief work periods

3. You do not always follow the orders of the management team

4. You do not stay in your allocated position and often visit other areas

5. You do not take initiative – you need to be pressured and stimulated in order to start working

6. You leave the workplace messy at the end of your shift

7. You don’t always observe necessary safety regulations, such as wearing the correct protective clothing

8. You’ll retire well before reaching 65

9. You’re unable to work double shifts

10. You sometimes leave your allocated position before you have completed the day’s work

11. And if that were not enough, you have been constantly entering and leaving the workplace carrying two suspicious looking bags

 

Sincerely,

The Management.

 

 

 

 

quit defending – it’s tiring

miss u

haha… i know i shouldn’t. but i really do. i don’t know why, it gets stronger everyday. i always think i don’t… but somehow, u just keep coming back. i guess i keep holding on to what you say… i believe in your words. which i guess i shouldn’t put too much hope on. walking back, i realised i haven’t really held someone’s hand comfortably for 2 years. i haven’t played with someone’s fingers for 2 years. i guess i must have forgot how it feels to have fingers intertwined… but i know it must feel good.

 

i just came back from praying. we went to the beach and let go of paper lotuses that will float in the water. but too bad… wrong timing. the tide was coming back.

 

before the praying session started, the uncle was reading my fortune. he asked me to choose 4 cards. the cards i chose were – king, queen, jack, king. i thought they were good cards. he said "what a mess". i don’t know what i want, and i am very confused now.

 

他说：好人，不要做得太多。做多了，反而变成了小人。

我想，他说得都是事实。因为，最近我常面对朋友的压力。。而我通常都会为了要让我的朋友感受到我的存在，不顾一切的帮他们，没有想到侯过。我没想到的事，就算我为那么多人做出那么多事，有可能吃亏得还是我自己。

他也说：做了任何选择，就要开开心心的去做，不要埋厌。快乐，是由你自己所定。那么，既然都活在这个世界里了，为何要把自己搞得那么不开心呢？

 

其实，他说了一天，他是说。。。 我很无聊。。。为什么不把因该做的事做好。。却忙着做那些不重要的事！！！

 

i guess, once i have settled and decided what i want to do with my life, i’ll become less confused. i used to think i’m quite a "steady" person. but js says lately i seem to have lost my sense of direction. like.. i’m more and more fickle. i can’t make up my mind anymore. maybe it’s because my mind is too clouded with boliao thoughts…. i need a change.

好high

i just got back from clubbing. woo so fun.. been about 3 years since birdy and i went clubbing. the first and last time prior to today was with daniel and rena.. and that was it. though i still remember the things that happened that day… hehehe… just feels like only yesterday 🙂

i am so drunk. i oculdn’t control my tongue. it felt like it wasn’t mine. really thick… but it’s a nice feeling!!!