Archive for February, 2008
therapy session
Posted in Uncategorized on February 29, 2008 by lmfjiangthis post is not interesting
Posted in Uncategorized on February 27, 2008 by lmfjiangtime to go full speed on my studies!
Posted in Uncategorized on February 25, 2008 by lmfjiangcheers
Posted in Uncategorized on February 22, 2008 by lmfjiangquiz galore!
Posted in Uncategorized on February 20, 2008 by lmfjiangWhat Your Handwriting Says About You |
You are a fairly energetic person. You know how do pace yourself, and you deal well with stress.
You are somewhat outgoing, but you’re not a natural extrovert. You think first before you act. You tend to be independent, rational, and logical. You are balanced and grounded. You know how to get along well with others. You need a bit of space in your life, but you’re not a recluse. You expect people to give you a small amount of privacy, and you respect their privacy as well. You are somewhat traditional, but you are also open to change. You listen to your head and your heart. You are a decent communicator. You eventually get your point across, but sometimes you leave things a bit ambiguous. |
You Are Right Brained In Love |
Bit of a drama queen Peacemaker, first to end a fight Good at thinking up creative dates Tend to fall in love and get hurt easily Going with your gut instead of your head Empathetic and caring, sometimes to a fault Good at recognizing patterns in relationships Been in love many times, perhaps too many to count Wildly passionate and intense when falling in love Spontaneous with relationships, going with the flow Overly visual – can play back past dates like movies in your mind Roses, love poems, and stuffed animals are a good start to winning your heart |
Your Are a Bold Brunette |
Men see you as striking and mysterious – you have a certain allure. Comfortable in your own skin, you know you have a unique beauty. You don’t mind attention, but you don’t need to seek it out. |
panic
Posted in Uncategorized on February 20, 2008 by lmfjiangWhat’s Your Name’s Hidden Meaning?
Posted in Uncategorized on February 15, 2008 by lmfjiangWhat Ke Ying Means |
You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life. You are also a keeper of knowledge – meaning you don’t spill secrets or spread gossip. People sometimes think you’re snobby or aloof, but you’re just too deep in thought to pay attention to them. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It’s easy to get you excited… which can be a good or bad thing. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. |
never ending story
Posted in Uncategorized on February 12, 2008 by lmfjiangi think if u want to, and if u can, u can severe many things in this world. but there is one thing, that i strongly feel, is that you can never severe blood ties. i guess you can stop contacting your relatives.. but somehow u will still care about those closest to you. if you have a heart, you will not be able to live comfortably knowing that your blood ties are severed.
sometimes i really feel like severing my blood ties. as much as i’m gaining a lot of materialistic items from that side of the family, their expectations of me grow higher too… i think.
i always think that if you give something to someone, it should be without conditions attached. and usually when someone gives me something, i don’t see that as someone "giving me a favour" cos i don’t really need a favour like that. if i possess an LV bag… is it actually a favour that someone has bestowed upon me? what use do i have for a LV bag other than envious stares from people around me? it doesn’t help my character development in any kind. okay, perhaps i can pawn it. or sell it. but how possible is that? if one day the person who gave it to me asks me about my LV bag, what do i say? is this a favour? okay.. so i accepted the LV bag. do i bound myself to whatever requests the person asks of me? can’t we just accept gifts in the most innocent and natural way, without being bound by conditions? even if there were conditions, i think it should be mutual.. and most importantly, not kept silent.
i thought about what my course speaker said this afternoon. he said. give a man 2million and he might kill a man for you. (something along those lines. ) i was thinking… if a man first gives me 2 million, i will accept it. (in the most naive ways, thinking he was probably too rich) but if i have already started using the money and one day he comes to ask me to kill someone, i probably will not do it. i’ll probably run away!!!
but now that i’m typing it out. i will probably kill someone for him because.. there is no free lunch in this world.
okay… trying to make myself guilt free, how about this scenario? someone gives me 3 gucci bags. i decline and that person gets angry if i decline. so i accept it. upon acceptance, do i again be bound by her silent conditions? i seriously do not know. i’ve been taught values in which i should appreciate what people have done for me and i sohuld always repay a person’s kindness. but how much should i repay? if you were to talk about how much, i think it’s a never ending story. how much is much? how do you equate actions to monetary value? can you? if i compromise my time and my happiness to accomplish a request set by that very person, does it equate to me giving back the 3 gucci bags? i don’t know.
i’m really perplexed right now because…. i’m very annoyed, frustrated and angry at myself, and at the other person. yes, it’s true that i have received many wonderful gifts from you. but aren’t gifts suppose to remain as gifts? or did you spoil me with a certain motive in mind? so that you can push my buttons and make me feel bad if i ever have to refuse you? given my situation, i would already have felt bad for refusing to help you. the very act of refusing you has set me on a whirlpool in my mind. my body burns internally and i can’t set my mind to start on my studies. if i were to help you, i wouldn’t have time for my studies. either way, u’ve got me bounded. how splendidly you do it. either way, u know i can’t run away from you. i should probably stash away my phone until end of may, when i’ve finished my exams and i have the time to play with you. why can’t human beings just be upfront, innocent and honest about things? why must everyone be acting behind the bushes? that totally sucks.
sometimes i wish that i would get knocked dead by a truck so that i never will have to face you again. u give me restless nights. make me break out in cold sweat. make me feel like i’ve got ants in my pants.
u scare the shit out of me.