fleury thoughts

can someone just slap me?

 

i’ve been smiling ever since i got accompanied along that familiar path one fine day. 

 

i’ve been smiling at nothing in particular since we got back into contact.

 

i’ve been fantasizing aobut what would have happened in the past if things were not what it was.

 

i’ve been thinking since 9pm…….

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

the time i can go to sleep.

 

 

12 more mins.

very productive indeed

i am just feeling so so so so productive today. Can you believe it? I actually completed all my tasks for the day! Well.. kind of… the flash player works well but it’s not looking like how it should work.

 

lookin back, i think i’ve came a long way. lol from june till now, that is. i hated my job. she forced me to do things i hate, like, programming. never in my wildest dreams, or rather, nightmares, would i ever think of myself sitting on this rattan chair typing away java and action script. but today.. TODAY! yesterday, for the past 3 weeks!! i have slogged, and i have conquered… i built a player similar to boobtube’s – and you can even resize the video to fit ur screen!!! ha. and i am just so proud of myself. yeah of course we probably could have bought a player or something. well… i don’t know why nobody wants to buy??!!! and then.. another milestone.. i actually did a live webcam broadcaster. how cool is that! lol it’s very much like boob tube’s of course. well we’re gonna be better than boobtube. probably. i wasn’t too happy or jubilant about completing the whole player app but she said,"dont u feel proud of urself? u, a single person, actually managed to come out with something quite like boobtube! and boobtube has got thousands of programmers slogging apps everyday and u are just one person. not to mention, a NOOB" yeah hell yes.. i, a noob, conquered. that’s just a "so feel good factor" man.

 

i never knew you could lose a kg by dieting. but this diet is makin me crazy. i’m like hungry all the time!!!

 

words of encouragement pushed me along this tough road i guess… she’s been encouraging me everyday. sometimes i give up.. but sometimes i guess… God helped me in some ways.. in that he gave me the luck to find out answers unintentionally. if someone took away my internet connection? well.. i might as well quit my job man. i can’t do nuts without the internet! other than her… i was glad to receive some encouragement from my inspirational – cow. such an inspiration… he never fails to make me wanna do better. i dont know how he has that effect on me. he is like a figure of driving force behind my back, somehow.

 

yesterday somethin interesting happened. j sent me home. without a car. lol i think it’s kinda pleasant cos the first and previous guy who sent me home was my ex boyfriend, durian. do guys like this still exist? oh well they do.. just that they didn’t come to me!!! lol.

mmmm… it’s a really nice kinda feeling. it’s as if i’m still a small little girl and i feel like it’s a big deal having someone send me home – well.. it’s because such situations are really rare for me!!! don’t laugh at me!!

 

know what? again now… i meddled with ms dos. ms dos. cool shit ya? i feel like i’m studying sanskrit and my teacher is malay.

 

alrite. how’s that for a long post??? i hope my next task will be interesting.. like doing market research will be cool. but not before i crack this huge rock resting on my back – to convert swf into a file format readable from mobile phones. wt the hell is that man………

well…

it’s been a long time since i last blogged, haven’t i?

 

oh well….. i don’t really know what to blog on lately. life haven’t been thoroughly interesting…

 

i’ve been working quite a lot… AND.. there’s basically nothing much to complain other than describing the chore of programming. lol. programming for the non-programmer. how cheesy. but oh well… i did make a live streaming video player.. which can play on demand videos too! well that’s like my first major accomplishment since i first started work a month ago. haha…

 

my beloved grandma has left this world for about 2 months already.. it’s so fast. in the seven weeks since she was gone… i’ve never really thought about her.. perhaps i had been busy with stuff… but lately.. i just get reminded of her more and more. i kind of recall dreaming about her last night… well…….. she’s bloated – just like how she appeared in my maid’s dream. she dreamt that i was feeding my grandma. i wonder if my grandma still remembers the days where i fed her? i miss her so much…

 

my student has a grandma.. living well and very much alive.. but he hates her like crazy. oh well i guess we all have different reasons for disliking someone.

 

i might only graduate in 2009.  haa… oh well.. it doesn’t matter i guess. i had always wanted to graduate in 2008… oh well.. that was the initial duration of my course. of course.. if u feel that u can’t cope with 4 subjects a year, you can choose to take 3 a year over the scope of 4 years. but of course.. for me….. oh well.. watever. haa…

 

know what? i’m just blogging for the sake of blogging. i don’t even know what am i blogging about. this is just an erreneous erreneous entry. … just kill me please……!