i’m back!

wee i’m finally back from my week-long holidays in hongkong and macau. mixed emotions this time. i wouldnt say it was a good holiday.. it wasn’t too bad either. tolerable. let me do a not-so-brief summary but brief enough.

 

day 1 was at hongkong. stayed at the parklane hotel at tung lok wan. wasn’t a really nice hotel. but still it’s pretty good. just that it had a really small bathroom. mmm when we reached there it was pretty late.. perhaps about 10pm. so we just went to walk around… many shops were open still (around 1am).. perhaps for people to do their last minute shopping before the first day of chinese new year the next day. we went to this really cool mango desert place called xu liu shan. they had items like mango ondeh-ondeh which is really nice.. and refreshing… mm also glutinious rice balls in mango pulp. yummy.. and the best is the puloh hitam with mango. that was the best! yeah.. so that was it for the first day.

 

second day.. we set off to macau for 4 miserable days. why miserable u ask.. i loathe macau. casinos everywhere. there isn’t much to do in macau except gamble, gamble AND GAMBLE. it’s really boring. so we stayed at the new starworld hotel. service sucks, but the hotel is godamn nice. when u enter the hotel into the lobby, a beautiful leggy filipina model will greet u welcome and happy cny. then if u’re lucky u’ll get to see the hotel’s in-house charlie chaplin and also on one of the days we saw about 8 transvestites. the 4 at the front were really beautiful.. but the 4 behind? don’t talk about it. sends my stomach churning. mm in macau… i wasn’t really happy there.. becuase there were some places which i wanted to go… but because of the unspontainety of the company i was in… i couldn’t go. perhaps people who have seen many parts of the world arent wowed about distinct features of certain countries. so there u go. the place i most wanted to see was the lighthouse not too far away from the ferry terminal. it’s really nice at night.. i could see it from the hotel. i guess i have to be contented that i can even see it from my hotel. haha… self comfort. we went to the fishermen’s wharf near the ferry terminal. they had like 3 extensions.. one was aladin land.. and volcano land.. and tang dynasty which has not opened. took a tram around the place. pretty huge place. wouldn’t have walked that far on foot! and went "wide water rafting" in volcano land. well it was a ride la… a ride in water. hahaha… got a lil wet. but it’s…. boring. pretty much a commercialised place. we went to wynn too.. nice place.. with baccarat chandeliers. bought a cap for my dad. wakao.. damn ex la!! sgd40!!! but nvm la.. hahhaa!!! xl says we must go to sands.. so we went. yeah it was even nicer than wynn! mmm no luck for the 4 days at the casinos. xl says yellow is the lucky color for everyone thisyr.. so i wore yellow undies. and i lost ALL THE TIME. after 4 tries.. i gave up. but perhaps because i didn’t use enought money to gamble. lol… small investments, even smaller returns. i just used like 15sgd. lol. and i lost all of it. people beside me were inserting hkd100 notes… and me? just 20 at a time. and.. everyone is winning money. at one ocassion this guy beside me had 1059hkd.. and this elderly couple won a few thousand dollars.

 

fifth day it was back to hongkong. went to ocean park.. spent the whole day there. man… ocean park really made me hate mainlanders. they really suck!!! kept pushing and shoving everyone. and they speak so loud as if they’re trying to quarel and pick up a fight. i got agitated easily over there. temper was really bad. i threw my temper at my aunts. they’re pretty idiotic sometimes. think they’re rich and they can just use money to make someone happy – but most of the time it’s not the money that matters. it’s ur sincerity and physical actions that make people happy. and my stupid cousin from hongkong!!! who is half a "beijinger". she is just 5. very clever.. very naughty.. and very sweet. i dont know whether to be mad at her or to love her. she is a little terror. she can talk non stop for 5 hours. never resting. and she is nasty. she kicked me. and i lost my mind and threw her sweet at her head. the sweet got stuck there and i started scolding her. i almost wanted to slap her. it was then i realised…… i better not have kids. in case i kill them accidentally. oh i went to lan kwai fong too… normal la. u’d wanna go there for pubs and dining only. other than that.. nothin much. then u will wonder why is the whole place so steep. but the best place in hongkong was the peak. man….. nice cool WIND, not breeze… overlooking almost the whole of hongkong. nice!!!

 

sixth day… disneyland. stayed at the disneyland hotel. cool place!!! nice homey feeling… cosey. and the naughty cousin went along as well. this time she was nice. after the incident in hongkong i didnt look at her for a whole day. but at disneyland she was a good girl and played with me. someitmes nasty again.. i think being nasty is in her blood. mmm disneyland was disappointing. was anticipating to the thrilling rides. but no thrilling rides. all for kids. real kids, not kids at heart. and really small!!! not nice… haha.. didnt get alot of gifts too.. the gifts werent exquisite. or perhaps they didn’t interest me.. but i did get a cute lil winnie the pooh honeypot cup for myself.

 

on the last day…. i was so happy that i’m going to come home.

 

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romeo is dead

haha sourgrapes. just cos i don’t have one i must insist that my romeo is dead.

 

fact, he’s not. he’s just in a faraway land. he’s my richard gere. haha.

 

anyway.. valentine’s day has made my day a lunatic one. it almost drove me nuts.

 

first… i dropped 50 bucks on my way to the bus stop. i ran out of cash.. so i borrowed 50 bucks from my dad.. and to think when i am broke.. i still managed to drop the only 50 bucks i have!!! now instead of being 50 dollars richer, i am 100 dollars poorer!!!! qx came out with a twisted story to make me feel better. she said a corrupted cupid took my bribe to find me a good partner. lol. it’s silly but it’s sweet. makes me smile. lol. corrupted cupid.

 

second… i got kinda pissed off smsing this friend of mine. durian. i hope his spikes drop.

 

thirdly… this stupid sean keeps telling me herbalife is not good!!!!! but i will try okay!!! stupid sean.

 

oh u know something? my hair’s a short bob now at my chin level! i luv it.

 

 

oops it’s v-day!

v-day? volumised loving day. what significance is valentine’s day? don’t u think valentine’s day is extremely over-rated? if you love someone u will love that person each and every day.. showering each other with gifts, kisses and whispering sweet nothings EVERYDAY. not just on valentine’s day!

 

i know of jokers out there who date girls just because they dont want to be alone on valentine’s day. me.. i tihnk it’s just a day…. that if someone asks u out, then go. but if they don’t… dont fret over it. it’s nothin much really. but of course being a girl… u will wish that someone will ask u out. but still… what’s the point of going out with someone whom you dont have any romantic feelings for? so yeah there it goes.

 

though i sound like i despise valentine’s day….. i’m celebrating it. lol. with my girls.. we’re gonna study!!! i packed my day. first with school and in the evening with my student. so sweet… to get driven to the wall by my student on such a specciiaallll day. gives me flushed, rosy cheeks too – naturally. hahaha!

 

just 2 more weeks. exact. to the mock exams. acha!

 

 

love and sex

with love comes sex but often, love prevails sex.

 

u may love someone.. and u may feel horny because u love that someone. but that doesn’t mean u stop loving that person when u stop feeling horny for him / her. do u get it? love and sex is different.

 

and again… having to feel sexually excited when u see a certain someone does not necessary lead to love for that person. oh perhaps u just love going to bed with him / her.. but do u love that person for who he / she is other than him / her being good in bed, or in kissing, or in caressing? i think there’s a clear distinct line between love and sexual love.

 

vday is in 7 days. happy valentine’s day! have lots of sex with the one u love… but it’s alright if you don’t… cos u will still love him / her all the same without sex.

 

haaa….

ousted for drugs

in my dreams. serious. i dreamt that i was with a group of hooligans who were doing drug trafficking and consumption. and 2 of my friends and i betrayed the group of hooligans and called the police. but in the end no one got caught… the 3 of us got caught by the hooligans. and we were made to swallow this huge pill that numbs our bodies. and i woke up.

 

why such a dream? ask the dream dicitonary..

 

Chase dreams often stem from feelings of anxiety in your walking life. The way we respond to anxiety and pressure in real life is typically manifested as a chase dream. Running is an instinctive response to physical threats in our environment. Often in these dream scenarios, you are being pursued by some attacker, who wants to hurt or possibly kill you. You are running away, hiding, or trying to outwit your pursuer. Chase dreams may represent your way of coping with fears, stress or various situations in your waking life. Instead of confronting the situation, you are running away and avoiding it.�Ask yourself who is the one chasing you and you may gain some understanding and insight on the source of your fears and pressure.

The pursuer or attacker who is chasing you in your dream may also represent a part of yourself. Your own feelings of anger, jealousy, fear, and possibly love, can assume the appearance of threatening figure. You may be projecting these feelings onto the unknown chaser. Next time you have a chase dream, turn around and confront your pursuer. Ask them why they are chasing you.

One may be consumed by their own anger, jealousy, love, or self-destructive behavior. For example, you may be drinking too much or exhibiting open hostility toward others around you. You may subconsciously be threatened by these actions which have been jeopardizing your relationships and/or career. Your dreams are a way of calling attention to these self-destructive actions.

A more direct analysis of chase dreams is the fear of being attacked. Such dreams are more common among women than men, who may feel physically vulnerable in the urban environment. These dreams are inspired by fears of violence and sexual assault in which we are so over-exposed from the media. The violence that the media portrays magnifies our fears and how at risk we all are.

 

i’m anxious. i think about my exams. and that time is running up. every morning i wake up with a racing heart beat.

 

i had policemen in my dream too… they were chasing after all of us. even when i was the one who called them..

 

To see the police in your dream, indicates some failure to perform or to honor obligations and commitments. The police also symbolize structure, rules, and control. A more direct interpretation of seeing the police in your dream forewarns that you should avoid reckless behavior.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

eh-EH

remember last post i SPECULATED that my lecturer kenny ong COULD be the animator in the 3g series??? you know what’s the meaning of COULD? could means might or might not be. it does not mean IS. well apparently… i received a piece of news from the real animator of the animation series!  his name is.. i think. chingsiong. he wasnt credited for his work on the article. so please everyone. remember his name. and that kenny ong mentioned in the newspaper article is actually a producer, not our KO. yeah so heather u dun need to go find out from ko liaoz.. haha!

 

yah singaporeans got no humour.

 

okie so that at least clears the clouds of the cloudy minds of ko’s students. hee

 

the whole of yesterday, i had problems opening my eyes. it’s like my brain was active but actually the second i got up from bed i wanted to sleep until the time i really slept – 1am. it’s amazing aint it. haahaa! did math again (for the sake of PHIL. NO.) and i wonder why can’t i ever finish my trigo and complex numbers chapter!! i’m still stuck there.. eew.. and i’m still in trigo! havent even touched complex numbers. maybe i should just restrict myself to do like just 10 questions right.. but i did like more than 30 questions on differentiation and am on the way of doing 20 questions in integration. okok complex numbers i shall just select 10 and move on…

 

i had a peculiar dream last nite. dreamt that the spots came to my place.. and we were chatting after dinner. so… xx lb and dc were chatting.. cos dc was after xx. and they were planning to go to far east.. and i wasnt asked along. then i started crying and went to hide in the toilet. it’s… wtf.

 

i realised…. that people don’t need to tell me things that have been happening to them. i really feel like i was a fool taken for a ride. but yeah.. they did have a choice to tell me if they wanted to. since they did not, i have no right to interfere. but then.. spare me of my feelings would u?

 

i seriously think… that i should stop going out man. STOP ALL UR SOCIAL ENGAGEMENTS! cow said. i am trying to oblige. serious.