picky

currently listenin to kelly clarkson’s because of u. it’s a terribly nice piece of music…. and adds to my sadness lately. not that something major happened that made me sad… i just feel sad. hey, we do have mood swings after all.. how can anyone be happy 24/7? why do clowns have to paint their faces? so that they can always hide their true emotions behind this mask of theirs.

 

isn’t it an irony that being non perfect human beings, we always seek to find the perfect other halves? if there was a grading system, i could be a grade 2 but i seriously want someone who fits a grade 8 category. ha. wishful thinking. someone once said that if u prayed hard enough and u wished hard enough, u’ll eventually get what u want. perhaps i should try huh… i never thought i’d be so good in luck. some people just have all the luck in the world. the others, we just get by..

 

talking about luck. congratulations to stin. that bugger!!! 2ADs and 5As!!!! and he’s always telling me he’s not prepared… lol.. taiko king. who knows.. he might be a nerd beneath 😛

 

becos of u… is not intentionally targeted at anyone i know. but just….. i like it k.. ed.

goodies aplenty

tis’ a feel good post. lol.

 

i felt so bored today, i thought of 5 things which i think i have in abundance. lol.

 

1. aplenty fats in my boobs

2. big love handles

3. a tad more facial hair, body hair

4. more than usual gaps in my teeth

5. huge butt that can push u off ur balance

 

now. that was… bo liao.

 

ahh… just came back from giving tuition not too long ago. went there light hearted and came back with a headache. he’s just SO TALKATIVE i had to scream at him to keep qiuet. sigh.. he never changes! i think he only listens to me when i get mean and nasty.

 

i have this friend. sometimes i just can’t stand talking to him. firstly, he doesnt talk alot. secondly, i can’t connect with him. thirdly, when i ask him to skip that topic cos it’s not what i want to hear, he just goes ON AND ON ABOUT IT?!!! can’t he be fucking sensitive and just shut the fuck up and change topic? he’s always so insensitive when he’s suppose to be and sensitive when he’s not required to be. how inappropriate can it get. argh.

 

oh i had chicken cutlet at school today. the cook must have thought i was a cow by serving me two huge pieces of cutlet. it looked like it was meant for 2 instead of just me. perhaps i look like a cow… and i need to satisfy the 4 stomachs of mine.

 

got a postcard from turkey yesterday. very nice… like the cottage feel of the place. nice. thank u, sesen 🙂

full of gratitude

this post is specially dedicated to the lovely indian neighbours living on the 8th floor whom we barely know until today.

 

my dad’s drunk again… as usual. it’s just the norm that he is drunk. but today, he sat down at the car park and refused to budge. we two ladies don’t have a lot of strength, especially for my mum whose arm nerves are numb and pain all the time. she cant exert any force at all. it’s very painful. so anyway… we were trying to carry him when those kind neighbours of ours stopped by to help. they carried him all the way up to my house. they’re very sweet, despite our different races. this is what singapore education has instilled in us. to not regard each other as different races, but as singaporeans 🙂 i’m really grateful for their help…

 

should get some sleep… have got revision class tomorrow again. sigh!

paranoid

how?! barely 2 months to ACTUAL EXAMINATIONS!!! bloody hell… so many things to study still!!! SHIT!

 

revision classes starts from today and lbo uol revision is during the coming weekends. so fast and uol revision already?! i’m not prepared yet. stressed up.

 

never knew school could be so stressful. lol.

 

made my bro try my portobello mushrooms today. haha. i dont know if he likes it. cos if he does, he made no effort to show it. -_-" emotionless freak.

null field

suddenly thought about this conversation i had with my friends yesterday while we were planning our list of invitees for the bbq to celebrate post examinations in june. so all of us were to include into the list our good friends. two of them each put in a single friend. and one of them said "i’m anti social. i only have one best friend". at that point of time, i was like "ok". but on the way back, i found her words to be such a mockery to me. of course i don’t blame her or anything cos she doesn’t know me well…. why do i have a few good friends and yet not a single best friend? reason is, i don’t have a best friend. most of my friends are hi-bye friends or just plain good friends, friends i can hang around with. looks like i’m the most anti social wan eh? oh well.. i dont know what’s wrong with me… maybe i’m too self centred? i guess i dont know how can i be a very good friend to anyone… or how do i cherish a friend… i try, but i never seem to be someone’s best friend or vice versa.

 

i’m still waiting.

 

recently, my mum kept telling me to shut my windows whenever i’m changing. hey, i’ve done aerial survellance already. i THINK no one will be able to see me as not a single block is within 10 metres from my window. so chances are i won’t get caught naked. (as if anyone wants to look) – unless one uses a binoculars maybe. why’s my mum so uptight is because recently, few weeks ago, someone got charged for being naked in his own house. how crude. if u can’t be naked and carefree in ur own house, then where? these people are just nonsensical. i think it should be exceptable unless there is an intention to commit lewd acts in public’s view… rite….

movie marathon

tired. just came back from an outing. pretty alrite day  for me.

 

xl and qx came over to my place in the morning. we played basketball and qx brought crystal for walks. and that silly dog of mine.. shit and peed like she never done in her life. everywhere! goodness gracious… so after that.. we got tired of playing basketball in a while.. went up to my room and slacked, surfing on singapore paranomal investigators. pretty freaky. wanted to book a chalet, but wrestled against the idea since not much people will turn up.

 

so we ended up  at tampines. went to catch Dorm. wow nice. "jeab" from my girl has grown up. and grown all handsome. nice nose and long eye lashes. hahaha… he’s reallly cute. will grow to be a heart throb, definitely. so cute. dorm is good for the faint hearted like me. it’s more of an emotional story than it is a ghost story. then we watched date movie too. it’s bloody lame. so lame with a big big big capital L.

 

rite.. nothing much to blog on. feel like sleeping

yes!

ubin cycling pics are up!

 

bballing with xl and qx on monday. yippee! always in holiday mood though the exams have barely started. lol.

 

and sea sports club is organizing a trip to sentosa on monday as well. oh watever.. wherever xl and qx goes, i’ll go 😛

 

boring sunday today i guess… the cloud’s clear for what i though a problem had existed. but no, it wasnt a major problem. it was just myself. yes thanks mr bhaskar 😉

void of emotions

sometimes i wonder how’d it be like…. numb to every single emotions reacting inside ur mind. numb and ignorant to people around u, their emotions, their gestures. how life would be, for a person void of emotions? would it be boring? or does it make life better? i wish there was a switch, where i can turn off all sensitivity and emotions at once… not having to think about, not having to respond to the people and the emotions and thoughts fighting within me. it’s terrible, emotions… it makes u cry, makes u moody. makes u laugh, makes u happy. how complicating it is to be human.

 

what are friends for, to play hide and seek?

happy three friends

time flies! exactly a week after the pulau ubin trip with my mates from uni. simply nice. xl just got back from hongkong and she sounds really good, really hyper. it’s good 🙂 i’m thankful to have three very nice ladies as my close friends at school. really.. they’re my main source of motivation to keep going to school and revise for examinations. friends i can keep, friends i can count on.. i’ll strive to make this friendship work.

 

funny. recently.. most of my netfreinds have found love suddenly. why not me. sob. i’m just jealous.

 

i think…. as much as i hate to realise… but i guess… anyone who’s not overweight can get a good spouse. sigh.. i hate losing weight. it’s such a chore.. it’s so torturous.. i keep giving up. i really have no motivation to work hard at all…. what can be my source of motivation? not jLo.. though she has the nicest butt and body in the whole universe… i still dont feel motivated. sigh.. wat can i do? shucks. i really suck at this. i hate myself.. urgh. maybe i’ll pull myself to gym again tomorrow? my knees are ringing.

 

went out with my sec school juniors. great fun… uh had fried mars bar. pretty interesting. shan’t count the calories. but i cant remember when was the last time i counted calories. seems like… NEVER.

 

finally managed to get hold of daniel. dang… just msned him like… 5 sentences and he fell into that pithole of his again. sigh… such a disappointment. ouch.

 

better go sleep now….. have to drag myself out of bed to go to school. chalo.

will just strive harder

just had my second last paper yesterday. stats. god. stats was like one of my more confident subjects and i just forgot whatever i studied when i entered the examination hall. all i could remember was the formula for standard deviation and variance. good grief! looks like i will have to do intensive math especially.. and work doubly hard now. i can’t afford to waste a few grand in repeating my modules! it wont work. especially when it’s an external degree and you don’t get good grades. such is the society i suppose… pbf is on thursday.. and i am just sooooo turned off at the thought of it.

 

later, i’m going to ubin with xl and qx. wee…. can hardly wait. is gonna be so fun!

 

went to kbox with sharel and xl. so funny…… i can’t help but think soemthing weird is going on in our friendships. i dont know…. it’s just funny. i can’t stand it. lol. shall be a secret.

 

time to sleep. chalo!