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cat looked simply beautiful this afternoon. nice figure, nice dress, nice hair, nice everything. haha…

 

the wedding went alright i guess… i felt kinda left out. cos i was alone. but it wasn’t that bad… chris’ wife took good care of me.. talkin to me… and all. haha i’m grateful eh…

 

jovan performed magic. fire, flowers everywhere. but… it looked normal to me. anyway.. it didn’t seem as fantastic as it could have been. but well….. i shant say anythin…

 

did i mention i signed up for kayaking? anyway.. i’m going for a short course in kayaking next weekend!!! cool…. good weather that day 😉 well… don’t say anything negative, will ya??!! i havent kayaked before… must be exciting !! can’t wait.

 

and tomorrow? i’m gonna dedicate all my heart and soul to my studies. test and assignment. yay.. cherios to the geek.

 

 

sunday’s best for marriages

my client’s getting married today.. at raffles town club. and! i am just so happy for them. haha.. this is so exciting! to be at a wedding!!! but funny thing is, i’m going alone. and i hope chris’ wife will take care of me while i’m there along with their aia associates. haha.. it’s funny going to a wedding alone!!!! but oh well… i shall keep myself entertained with the programme. knwo what?? the groom is gonna perform magic tricks! oh well, he’s a magician. how cool is that???

 

thing is…. when my friend asked the bride how she felt, she said… "it’s like going for another performance" i was llike…. wtf??? wedding isn’t a performance. god….

 

anyway, am in high spirits today, i dont know why. and oh.. i’m so lack of sleep. damn…. i can’t seem to sleep properly today. i keep thinking about a lot of things. i keep thinking about love, forgotten love and love that isn’t even there. aww…. my heart pumps like 80/min maybe. i dont know. but it’s thumping very hardly. like as in i’m love, or missing someone. which i seriously don’t think i am..

 

stin sent me a link http://retardpatrol.blogspot.com. it’s pretty entertaining. and hillarious i think 😉 go, go take a look!! the authors’ got something against "i dUnCh nOeXx l3hZzx.. mI IsH sHoOoO gIrLeeeSzH" tat kinda crap language. so am i. i think it’s so bloody irritating to have to read words like that. half the time is spent thinking "now.. what the hell was that" i wonder if they’re teachers are all dead. or they probably must be failing their duties as teachers. gawd. or yeah.. these people are retards nothing can be blasted into their minds.

life’s fragile

this afternoon, on my way home, there was a long jam which spread for like…… i dont know. but we must be stuck there for at least 30 mins. i couldn’t sleep, but i had a feeling it must be something bad. so being the inquisitive girl that i am….. i stayed awake, wanting to see for myself what has caused the huge jam.

 

i wish i haven’t seen it at all. oh well…. two buses have collided. and it seems like either one of the buses have schoolkids on it. the kids were all standing at the bus stop. the first bus i passed, the back of it is chipped. like it was banged real hard. and gosh. the second bus, which is on the other side of the lane…. the driver’s door is totally smashed. the metal is MASHED and the windows smashed. it gave me the feeling like the driver might be mutilated. it’s scary. it really looks horrible. at that point in time…. i thought "poor children.. to have gone through such terror" will they have phobia of being on the road in future? and i also thought about those people affected by the jam. it was during the lunch time hour… probably many people are rushing back to their offices. we’ve always learnt "risk management".. are this kinda stuff foreseeable?? i guess not.. oh well….. and i went back to sleep.

 

i’m feeling rather unhappy today. i dont know why… i just feel moody maybe.

procrastination is a form of art

yeah right, wT. and trust you to come out with a phrase like that "… and it takes time to perfect it." she is treating this phrase like her pride and joy. lol. that’s really funny. but well…. watever.

 

things are really going against me between me and him. not that he’s being mean to me or anythin… nor is he doing anything to upset me. or if he is, he isn’t aware of it. every day, every second… i tell myself that no one is perfect. nothing ever will be. yet he just can’t seem to meet my expectations. i don’t even understand why at times does he act like that. but it seems that he grew up that way.. it isn’t easy for him to just change if i told him to. the only way around it is to accept, which i really can’t bring myself to do it. sigh… i don’t feel happy with him anymore. i need someone with more depth. help. can he be blessed with depth overnight?

 

m just being silly.

aww.. what a drag :(

i had what seems the most tiresome day today since the start of school a coupla months ago. it seems rather pathetic aint it? that i’ve only just started being busy despite being enrolled in a degree course – how clever! LoL. it’s not that i don’t have work.. it’s just… i’ve gone back to my old ways – lazy. but these days i’ve been really studious. with jayne spurring me on and asking me out to study together, i swear i’m very hardworking. but i still need to buck up.

 

alright. talkin about my tiresome day. i just loathe today. firstly, there was econs class in the morning. i didn’t understand a single dung. at first i was quite alright. until more and more curves started appearing. ho! isoquant and isocost came back. EVERYTHING i had learnt and havent revised came back. why do these exam setters have to use such profound english??!! i dont understand ANYTHING, seriously.

in the afternoon.. after a yummilicious plate of roast chicken, i had another class. theorical class. again.. i was falling half asleep during the lesson. it’s always like that. i’m like a pig. even fisherman’s friend didn’t help. sigh. anyway, i couldn’t really absorb. it took me quite some time to understand. but i still need lots of revision. i remember my lecturer saying we need to clock up 8 hours of study for that unit every week. i conk after 8 mins.

am doing clarence’s website now. he’s an idiot. i’m suppose to do so many additional things and he just gave me the pictures to edit. my deadline is next wednesday. and i have to come out with a splash page in flash, some kinda flash picture bar, a dynamic picture scroller (which i dont know how the hell am i gonna do), the database, admin pages, product.asp… gosh. there are so many things. if i concentrate on programming, i can’t concentrate on design. but you get what you pay don’t you? since i’m underpaid, i guess the wisest thing to do is to do a half-farked job. yeah baby.

 

i’m getting smart. ha ha ha.

customer service dung

customer service shit.

tell me, what is seriously wrong with customer service in singapore these days? other than not smiling when you enter the shop and ignoring you when u’re asking a question, they suck at tele-communicating.

i called this courier company.. this company has put up lots of commercials on tv, in which their commercials are all very tacky and is inscribed deep in your brain. anyway, i asked them for their rates. before i even finished my question, the girls (i called twice) said,"please check our website at www.example.com.sg/rates" .know what? the page is INVALID. there ain’t such a page. what’s wrong with these people. and my boss called… same response. and she aint one who can tolerate bad service. she said "you don’t even wanna listen to what i have to say. in that case, i won’t wanna tlak to you." and that girl on the other line hung up the phone. oh boy… i really hate such people.

i called this airline service.. and it’s suppose to be a service line catered for the previledged customers. because i don’t have any details and i was to help my mum get some details… i told her i didn’t have any details. and she kinda thought i was stupid or somethin. she didn’t even bother to look for other details like maybe my membership number. SHE DID NOT EVEN BOTHER! that’s really atrocious, i dare say. rejecting whatever help she would have been able to give me. she was speaking in a really frustrated tone – she sounded like she wanted to pick up a fight. i had to tell her " i don’t have any information. but can’t you just check from my membership or whatever?" then she just checked. brainless b*tch. they say when you don’t wanna help, you will not do anything that will help. it’s god damn true.

and i hate to state the fact that all 4 of the above are malays. something to comfort myself – an hungry man is an angry man. but of course… the courier service thing didn’t happen during the fasting month. serious. i’ve never come across any chinese who speaks irritably on service hotlines. of course i’ve came across friendly malay customer service officers, like the one at UPS. i was new.. and she didn’t mind bringing me through the procedures. she did it really patiently. i asked lots of questions. and she didn’t sound irritate a single bit. why can’t they just be courteous, ever so willing to help and all? CAN’T THEY BE PATIENT??!!! not everyone is familiar with everything. there are bound to be first timers. why cant they just reach out and guide that person? isn’t that what service is all about? i can’t help but shake my head. i am truly disappointed.

bitter.

cl’s turned very bitter. so bitter that i can’t believe i’m talking to the same person anymore. she talks with sarcasm. with bitterness. school has turned her this way. what’s wrong with education? there’s so much stress even in school. yes, it may be training students for what’s more to come in the real world. but i bet people will not be this stressed. she told me she doesn’t even have time to sleep. not to even say go out. when we’re out, she does her work when she can. poor girl. actually i feel heartbroken seeing her working herself mad.

 

worst of all, i didn’t even know creative studies could drive you mad.

 

am not good today. i hate everyone today. i hate my brother for being an asshole. i hate my dad for putting me down. i hate my maid for laughing behind my dad. i hate my mum for being away – playing mahjong. i even hate my bf.. for not knowing how to console me. and for not telling me things i want to hear. i wanna just vomit on my maid. throw food at my dad. stomp food in front of my mum. smash food in my brother’s face. i hate them all. why? just because i’m fat.

finally

finally – the web server is set up. BUT!!! unexpected problems…. it’s either they haven’t really set it up (yet they sent us the connection details)… or my internet connection’s cocked up. but it doesn’t seem that way. gosh.. to think i have to wait. and wait.. and w….a….i…..t. it’s so frustrating! all my life i’m waiting. ahha… it’s kinda true, don’t you think so? we’re always waiting for something. be it the bus, waiting to be served, waiting for the sun to shine, waiting for sunset, waiting for us to turn 21… we’re always waiting. gives us somethin to look forward to.

 

but i can’t tolerate having to wait for things that i need it to be done fast. efficiency is important when you’re selling your service. for this web hosting company, i’ve read good reviews about them…. but oh well… let’s give them a second chance.

 

i see my friend’s nick. she sounds sad… i’m concerned about her, but i dare not. i do not wanna agitate her cos i haven’t been able to work on her website.. sob. i feel like a loser.

 

made a friend at the gym. funny. at first i thought he was new as he didn’t seem to know how to use the x-trainer. and i was like telling him how. he just looked at me meekly and gave a super half hearted smile. i thought he was a chinese national after he didn’t respond for a few times. so.. i just ignored him and watched him from the side of my eyes. he was paddling backwards and was like losing his balance. at the resting area, i was reading this newspaper and he chatted me up. (wow, chatted me up ) he’s not NEW!! he’s been in the club for like 2 years.. but he just felt too tired to work out.. that’s why he was acting in a trance-like manner. we chatted for slightly more than an hour.. and we’re meetin up on saturday for gym session. oh boy.. i hope we’ll just be gym frens that’s all… cos he’s not the kidna guy i’d like.. he’s so "guan-ish"… he’s shy. i prefer bastards.. besides, i have a bf. i hope me smiling to him and laughing with him doesn’t send him the wrong signals.

tired *yawn*

recently, i just can’t seem to get enough sleep. always tossing and turning in bed.. and i just have to get up so early!!! man… it’s not that i want to.. it’s just my silly body clock 😦

 

anyways.. yesterday, i went out with san and joan, my juniors back in band. oh.. they’re still the same. it’s amazing.. we’re all one year older than the other – yet we could get along quite well. it’s just nice.. pure joy 🙂

went to takashimaya – pepper lunch or pepper place. i can’t remember. but the food there is quite nice. it’s like teppenyaki but you diy. but it’s kinda expensive too. $15 for a plate + rice + drink.

 

after that, we went to lido – caught 40 year old virgin. it’s such a brilliant show. hha..not mentioning hillarious. that poor actor.. he must have gone through so much!!! god.. can you imagine.. he has this chest FULL OF HAIR, and i really mean… lots and lots of hair. more than average – it’s scary. oh anyway, he went to wax it. till he bled. gosh…. poor thing. but of course, he didn’t manage to wax all of it. he’d have fainted by then. man.. i can just imagine.. it’s like waxing pubic hair. GaWd. hurts.

 

so after the movie, of course we had to exit the cinema right. a stupid thing happened. i slipped down the stairs. and thank god – this white guy pulled me up.. so i won’t slide all the way down. of course it’s just a small flight of stairs, maybe 6-7 steps? i’m thankful. but i was so flustered i didn’t even thank him well enough. oh well.. i hope he knows i’m thankful. lol… you know, i don’t often lose my balance or slip on the road.. but i’ve did it thrice. and out of these 3 times, i was helped by white gentlemen twice. the other time, this singaporean just stared at me. stupid people!!!! then i told san. and san said,"sg-eans watch too much tv. they’re scared if they help the girl up, the girl might think he’s trying to be funny".. but that’s a stupid reason anyway.

what am i to do…

few months ago, i promised a friend to help her construct an updateable website. i’ve done the skeleton of the a month ago… and she seemed pretty happy with it. however, i didn’t ask her to get a domain as well as a web hosting package as i wanted to help her save some money for the subscription. she’ll only register the domain when i’m done….. i had intended to use another friend’s server. but till now, i havent got any information from that friend regarding his server.. and things have come to a standstill.

 

many times, i see her online – yet i dare not talk to her. i keep running away.. i don’t know what to tell her. i sincerely want to help her do her website… yet i have also other websites that i am making a living on. i think i’ll just do a basic html one first…….. but i took so long to think of it. why is that…. why am i such a pea brain?